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Disclaimer: I am just going to post this, I know it will probably rub some people the wrong way, religiously speaking. But it is just my story and I am sharing it not challenging anyones belief's.
My grandmother recently passed away, she is someone who I love more than anyone else in the world. I have had a very deep connection with her every since I was a child. She loved me too, so very much. Around three years ago I moved hundreds of miles away, so I hadn't seen her since.
A few weeks before Christmas, I had a dream that she passed away. It really upset me, even though it was just a dream. Just dreaming it was too much. I put together a package to send her for Christmas. I sent her something she loved the most, decorations. I sent beautiful Christmas ornaments and a nativity statue, I also sent a soft blanket. I just wanted to tell her I loved her.
My grandmother was a devout Christian, she was the daughter of a preacher. Even though she knew that I don't have a religion, she still loved me. She told me of all the Christian people she knew that even though I wasn't a Christian that I was the most Christian person she knew. She accepted me for who I was, with all my flaws. She loved to sing hymns, every time I would visit her she would sing me old church songs.
She loved appreciated and held onto life. She used to have a home with a yard that she made into a heaven paradise. Never have I seen so many flowers, so many beautiful colors. She spent hours everyday watering them, they were her greatest joy. She always told her children, "don't buy me flowers after I die, give them to me while I am still alive". She truly was wise. My grandmother decorated everything even her yard. It was her paradise, her heaven on earth. She even had a sparrow land on her hand once, that says something. She had planted a willow tree among those flowers and she planted the most beautiful wisteria flowers it took 11 years for them to get their first flowers, but year after year she tended them beautifully one day they began to bloom.
My grandmother lived in constant prayer. She prayed for everyone and held no hate in her heart. She was truly a beautiful being. She was beautiful inside and out, she never did look her age. She passed away without one wrinkle on her body. She was flawless.
A few days before she passed away, I had another dream about her. I dreamed we were visiting one another, and she hugged me for a long time in that dream, she talked to me about my heart and loving. Even though it was just a dream, I feel grateful for it.
The day she passed away, I wrote this letter.
We all knew this day would come someday, but we hoped it would not come.
Who among us can hold off the tides of impermanence?
Life and death are part of every moment.
Woven into the fabric of life, without death there can be no life.
There will not always be a tomorrow.
Today was that day, the day my beautiful grandmother breathed her last. My heart felt so heavy, I began to weep. I could feel my grandmother in me. I could feel her facial expressions, her way of being. I put my hands together palm to palm, clearly aware that me and my grandmother are one. I cleared my heart, and touched the vast. I relaxed my body and allowed a smile to form on my tear stained face.
I thought grandmother you and I are not two, I will do my part to bring you peace and non fear in your transformation. I could feel my grandmother in me strongly. I went on a journey in my mind for my grandmother. I thought of all of her grandchildren, how she is them. I looked deeply into how she was reborn into her children and grandchildren. We are each her continuation. Then I let us go into space and look back at the earth. Grandma in the same way that we are you, we are the earth. I seen the great multitudes of beings who have came and gone rising up from the dust and going back, beings without number. I thought clearly we are the earth itself.
Then I thought just as we are the earth so too are we the whole cosmos. Just as we come from the earth. The earth comes from the whole cosmos.
Grandma look, we are part of the whole cosmos, we are everything. Look back at the earth, do you see? We are just like waves on the ocean that rise and fall. We are not bound by this body grandma, we truly are life without boundaries. Do not be afraid, smile with me grandma.
Do you see? You are made from the stars, you are made from the sun, and the ocean. Since before time you were always here.We are not born, and we do not die. We are life without boundaries. Moment by moment we are meeting at the source.
Do you see the smile in your grandchild's eyes? That is you. They are made from you.
Do you see the living beings on the earth? They are the earth, they are made from her.
Do you see the earth spinning in the vastness of space? She is made from it.
We are everything.
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Originally Posted by DGUtley
