My Autobiography would take a book. I do not write books, I write nanoessays. Hopefully, one day I will self-publish a book containing a few short stories and over a hundred nanoessays. I appreciate everyone who gives me feedback on the nanoessays I write.
In this nanoessay I will discuss my actual and ideal career choices. An important part of myself is my Moderate Autism and Moderate Depression. My Autism is innate, while Depression is not necessarily so.
Moderate Autism is a significant Disability. Being Moderately Autistic, I do not drive, nor do I have a driver's license. Driving is much more dangerous for someone who may not be able to concentrate on the road ahead. Not thinking about the latest online debate may not be possible for an Autistic. A Moderately Autistic individual may not be able to find friends -- he/she may not be malleable by Society. A Moderately Autistic individual may not be able to find job. I am unemployed. For an individual with Moderate Autism, working at a job he/she does not like may be torturous. I can not work on STEM problems more then 10 hours a week. I am very grateful to my parents for supporting me. In USA, there are 44 Million people with Mental Disability, many of whom do not have support. The situation of 10 Million people with Severe Mental Disability is much worse -- I can not even imagine.
Moderate Autism may be a great Asset. Most Autistic people have an interest or a range of interests on which they focus most of the time. Most successful scientists had an Autistic Interest coinciding with their occupation. They were able to work and enjoy working on their interest for countless hours. Autistic Interest and perseverance brought them great results. Other Disabilities may also be assets for some people -- many popular artists and singers either ``suffer" hallucinations or induce them by drugs. One T-short popular in 1990s said ``I do not suffer insanity -- I enjoy every minute of it".
My Autistic Interest is writing about Social Issues. For instance, I believe that men in the Western World suffer significant discrimination. Men are discriminated in Divorce. Men get 63\% longer sentences for the same crime. Male DV victims are more likely to be arrested then helped. Men accused of sexual misconduct are presumed guilty. Male Bashing is very common and accepted in MSM. Even though these issues interest me since 1995, it is impossible to make money writing about them. Very few publishers would publish Politically Incorrect material. Moreover, people who write about these issues suffer severe repercussions from SJWs. Advocating for Politically Incorrect victims of Abuse and Discrimination in modern Western World is as difficult as being a Dissident in any Totalitarian state.
Given that it is impossible to make money by being a Dissident, I had to continue with a different career path. I was proficient in Mathematics, although I disliked it with passion. I was told by a therapist, that with PhD in Math I could make good money. I did get a PhD in Mathematics, which was a great mistake. After many years I am still unemployed. The main reason I can not find employment in Mathematics is that anyone who works with me understands my lack of interest in the subject.
Looking back, I am thinking of my mistakes. My first mistake was trying to earn a lot of money doing something I do not like. I should not have tried to sell myself for a salary, I do not need anyway. It would have been much better if I got a Bachelor's and a simple job. I do not need more then $25,000 per year. If I am not going to work on the subject of my interest, the main criteria for a job are low difficulty and low work load. A work load of 25 hours a week would be OK. A businessman who works unreasonable hours on a boring and difficult job in order to support his family makes a poor role model.
Maybe I should have tried to find a job related to my interest. There are no shelters for abused men, or Men's Studies departments. The only profession which helps mostly men is Defense Attorney. Even if I could not have become a Lawyer, I could have become a Lawyer's assistant. First hand experience would have given me much more material to write about.